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We celebrated Mike's birthday yesterday and it feels, looking from the outside in, that this birthday has come as a hard-won transition.  He has been through the ringer this year.  Good things have come along, but many very difficult things, too.  It's been three weeks since we got the news that Mike might lose his job. We've had so many different emotions since then.  The days have been a whirlwind of hope and despair, lonliness and love.

Mike's birthdayMike's been super busy, working at his own self-employment ventures and applying for new jobs.  One, in particular, has us feeling hopeful and dreaming of a new way of life.  It's hard to invest too much in it, though.  We have never, ever had our pick of jobs, always taking the first and only thing that is offered.  The days are somewhat disorganized, but no more than when he was working at Walgreen's.  Our hope for whatever comes along, is that we will find ourselves with more predictability.  One thing is certain: he will never work on Christmas again.

I've been struggling, too, mirroring the challenges that have been all around me.  I try to start each day with renewed energy, but it is hard when the end of the previous day felt so exhausting.  Mainly, I'm emotionally worn.  My body is strong and able and I am so very thankful for that.  I've had trouble finding time for T-Tapp the past couple weeks, but I've continued to lose weight.  I have plenty of ways to expend energy!  I'm trying to find my way back right now, hopeful that the preparations for Mike's family's visit this weekend will reset things around here.  I'm done feeling behind.  The best parts of our days are the homeschooling parts.  They feel the most ordered and peaceful and the children are loving the new circle time, with all the new Fall songs.

It's supposed to rain for the next several days and things will be ten degrees cooler.  I am very much looking forward to it.  Roan loves rain and is always eyeing the skies.  Perhaps it will wash some of this tumultuous energy away and give us a fresh outlook.

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impossibleway
Sep. 14th, 2014 10:59 am (UTC)
It would be so very nice, so welcome, so needed. I'm glad the letters made it. :-)
( 2 trees — Plant a Forest )

A Blessed Wilderness

It was just like being in heaven, being in there. In those days there was no road. The park was all a blessed wilderness. I have often thought what a wonderful people we would have been if we had wanted to keep it that way.

~Adolph Murie, biologist, on Denali


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